{Underneath the Stars}

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Comments on my post..

10:33 PM

Hmm..i just realized that all post made with this current template can NOT be commented..

Dayum..does anyone know how i can add the comments thing?? Or does anyone have other websites where i can get another template which supports comments and looks good too..hahaha..

Anyway..if you do have any..do leave a msg on my tagboard =)

Muackz!

Take care everyone..

Cheers..

~SeanChua~

more random chats

1:45 AM

Well..okay..i'm just going to randomly post things again..hahaha..

Hmm..i can't remember which day it was..but it was on the front page of the STAR newspaper where they were talking bout the government and bloggers..

About that topic..i think its a good idea for the government to do that..i mean..weren't we given the "rights" to speak freely? or was it openly? i mean..we can say what we want about anything out there right??

Cause i believe that everyone has the "rights" to speak out their mind openly and freely..because they are just thoughts and opinions..but once the people thinking/talking about it starts to do something about it..like say make a riot or something then yes..it is wrong..

But i still do NOT see the problem with "Freedom Of Speech". For example..that prince dude..raja something which was jailed? or was it something like that for his own opinions given out on his blog..IMO - i think its stupid for the government to do that..and its quiet out of the way..really..sigh..its just a comment..what so wrong about that??

Anyway..moving on..Remember that song made by one of our malaysian who went to taiwan? IMO - That song is cool and its nice..plus..it is quiet patriotic don't you think?? lol..Our own "NegaraKu" song is rather..no..its not rather..IT IS BORING!! seriously..i once recalled falling asleep to that song while standing up straight...how often can someone stand up and fall asleep..sigh..

Changing topics..recently..my friend's blog has been blocked?? Its funny..she says it was reportedly doing "SPAMS" is that right Leit? o well..guess no more chocolate backgrounds for YOU hunny..hahaha!!

Moving on..College for me has started again..2nd semester..This semester will be a short semester...8 weeks all in all and i'm taking just 2 subjects this time round..why you may ask?

I'll tell you why..i freaking FAILED WORLD RELIGION LAST SEMESTER!! but o well..i never really liked that subject anyway..and the lecturer teaching that subject was killing..dayum..his some transfer lecturer from the "US" and i think like..1/3 or so only passed..sigh..i got a "D" btw for that subject..that means i got 60-69 but i freaking failed it still cause its an ADP subject which requires 70% to pass it..FISH YOU ADP!!

Anyway..its 2.10AM in the morning and i should be sleeping now..so take care everyone and GOOD NIGHT!!

Cheers!!

~SeanChua~

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Funny vids for McDonalds Chant

10:23 PM

Got this off nuffnang..damn this vid is funny..

Check it out..

And well..this is quiet cool..

And as for this one..Goodness..some people are just too free..

Anyway..i'm off..ciao~~

~SeanChua~

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Out of boredom post XP

7:06 PM

Yellow everyone..

I'm back from singapore and i'm bored..cause 2moro..my college starts..dayum!

Anyway..before i start..

Grace dear..what in the world is your post about?? What happened?? Tell me bout it over the sms or something okay..muackz!

To start off my post..

When i went to singapore..well..on uh..24th may..singapore was having this "The great singapore Sales" thing going on..and there are great sales everywhere over @ orchard road..and they also have like..20+ pairs of people which were given $1000 in a visa card to spend and make the biggest savings with that $1000..

These are some pictures for you to see..

-Below : A lady blocked the view but the picture
shows how packed charles & keith was in one of the malls-

-Below : This was inside the shop..i just snapped it..hahaha..but dayum...check all the people out-

-Below : This was "The Great Singapore Sales"
Event i was talking about-

-The picture below are some of the international contestants..there were 19 of them-

-Below are the some of the contestants again..
i was walking by and i just snap shotted it..hahaha-

-This was the eating area..there were way more people there than what you can see in the picture..i was just lazy to actually take all of them-

So anyway those pictures are some of the pictures i took..but this one i like..i would only have to say..girls are crazy..hahaha..this is why..

Would you check out the line outside LV(Louis Vuitton), FYI, this was a small portion of the line..i didn't want to take the line itself cause maybe some "ladies" would think i'm taking a shot of them and complain or something..singapore is such a pain in a way or two..laws are pretty strict..

Moving on..after all the pain of getting through the crowd and etc..we sat up at the food court and have some ice cream and ice kacang and etc..and i spotted THIS..check out below..

See the lady there..She's SLEEPING!! hahaha..cool right?? She's sleeping there like..its her home or something..its not bad..hahaha..well..SHOP till you DROP yea?? Good moto and a picture to prove it..hahaha..there is a shopping bag beside her too..if you hadn't noticed it already..hahaha..

So anyway..later..we had our own drink at coffeebean..

This was my drink..some fruit tea..dayum it was SOUR!! had to put almost a whole cup or syrus to balance the taste a lil..but it was still so VERY SOUR!!

My dad and this coffee and a small cup of coffee which my mom poured into that small cup to drink..i have no idea why..but she just did..

Moving on~~ , on the way home..my family stopped by melaka for awhile..to have satay babi..yes..PORK SATAY!! ahahaha..i love this satay..its..small..but very nice..it somehow tastes better than all the other satay's i've eaten before..

Okay now..this is the joke of the week for me..lol..
See the red packets in the car dustbin below? those are my "Ang Pow" from chinese NEW YEAR!! Yes..that was like..3 months ago..and it was in my mom's car still..hahaha..

There were RM87 worth of "Ang Pow" In those red packets and i left it in my mom's car!! What the ducks..hahaha..seriously..next time..do check your cars if you know you don't remember things well..

O well..that was my trip down to singapore from friday until sunday..it was a funny trip though..but it was boring..in a few ways..

I wanted to post more pictures..but i was lazy to take pictures..so i just took a few pictures..hahaha..

This update post has taken awhile to be posted..lol..i mean..check the date out on my last post..it was..weeeeekkksss ago..hahaha..

ANyway..i'ma buzz now..take care everyone..

Wait..i should be saying that to myself..i'm falling sick..lol..anyway..college starts 2moro..yawn..boring shit..back to college life..but well..it will be good..cause i'm bored at home during holidays man..i mean..well..not all 3 weeks of holidays was boring..but certain days..and well..when your stuck at home..it isn't exactly the best thing..hahaha..

Muackz..take care everyone!! again!!

And have a great week..month..year?? AHEAD!!

Ciao!!

~SeanChua~

Saturday, May 24, 2008

step by step =)

11:11 PM

i've tried. I HAVE TRIED MY VERY BEST at that very spot, moment and place. but... i stil cant get it right..i screwed it. badly. GONE.

i'll never get anything right nor i deserve anything. im sorry. im sorry bout cant being wat u expect me to be or give u the things that u wan. i'm sorry for letting u down. im sorry for not being a person that u were looking for or expecting smtg from. im just... a failure.

a failure is ALWAYS a loser and THAT.. is who i am.

i cant do anything. i cant change anything bcoz its just the damn shitting thing that is me with the damn fucking problem that i cant even understand myself that made the whole thing worst. im sorry but i really really did try my best at that very moment.i've tried explaining but u cut me out and the lump was forming in my throat. day by day that i've give up bcoz there's no used to explain, no point to explain anymore. no point to live.

dun ask me why i went to BBI again this time. i was at a place which i am NOT SUPPOSE TO BE. and yes.. i was there for the passed 2 to 3 hours plus. and daRn prefects actually found me there..

dun go asking me why am i looking like a zombie these few days bcoz my eyes were just out of shape and it has always been like that for the passed one month. just let it roll.. =) im stil alive

im sorry to some of my frenz out there. its not that i dun trust u guys or anything.. its just.. sometimes.. i prefer to keep things to myself and let it roll.. bcoz basically its just me with the problem and i cant even understand why. i appreciate that u guys cared and wanna be there for me. but somehow.. im pushing u guys away. im sorry. i cant help myself from wat im doing. i cant speak out and im just too tired to do anything.

always slept in class and wouldnt wan to wake up. hugging my bag over here and there. sorry to the teachers that i've done smtg that disappointed u guys and.. for not being the "girl"that u once thought i am. im sorry.

and a word to eleena.. if u're reading this that is.. i just wanna tell ya.. i really do appreciate the day that u actually stay back for nearly 30mins just to wait for me to finish my last paper and walk back together (tho we seperate 3mins later). i am beyond touch that.. and greatful that u actually waited. and i wanted to thank u for that =) hugz!!

thanks to candy and hurul for hanging out with me during monday. oh.. and not forgetting.. zack~! =D been a great day. should try go sucking the shisha again. ;) LoL

babe's off to SG. let's just hope that he'll have a great day there. =)

just got back from KK's lake not long ago. was hanging there with a fren and he sent me home with his bike. the cold wind blew on ur face that it feels so good. went shouting out loud like a mad man on the way. =p hahaha. but it was good.wanted to stand but he wouldnt let. nevermind. =.=

ppl often said that.. HOME is the best place to be. but.. izit true? we do know parents love us so much no matter wat. but.. sometimes.. wat they did. its just the wrong way of expressing their love to us. we know very well they love us so much. more than anyone out there. but.. why sometimes.. we dun feel their love? where's the love in the house? cold shoulders everywhere towards u. when u need them, they turn away from u. tried to explain but came shooting on u bcoz no matter wat u do, wat u say.the wrong is ALWAYS on u.tried to open up but it just dun click.

yawnn.. its been a long long month. a real hard and long once. he'll be back by tmr night. =) yes~!! we'll just wait for him to update some details by then. =D

i'ma hit the sack now. i'll not be around til monday. so take care ya all ppl. and im just sorry for the once that i love and the one who loves me. i know i've disappoint u guys. so much. i do really know.. but.. i didnt really wan it to happen but.. it did. wat's done is done. no turning back. onli look forward and taking each and every step with thorns under ur footstep. blood bleeding out and forming a long long line of blood trace behind u.

lastly.. im just sorry.

bet no one would understand wat's this post is all about =) not even him. =) hahaha. o well.. after all.. its just a blog.u can post watever u wanted too. no? =D

take care ppl.have a great day ahead.

muackz =)

~GraceKoh~

was taken last monday =)

Friday, May 23, 2008

In singapore

12:13 PM

Hey everyone!

I'll be in singapore from today(friday) until sunday night..

So i'll be away from the chatbox area for these days..but do keep chatting among yourselves and have fun! =D

Okay? hahaha..take care..i'll be back on sunday night to check my chatbox out for any replies which i have to make =)

Cheers!

~SeanChua~

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Tagged by Mun Yee

12:27 AM

1. What is the most important thing in your life?
ღCurrent : Future/friends/Darling[s] XPღ

2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
ღFood..ღ

3.Where do you wish to get married?
ღSomewhere on earth =) , I really have no idea..wherever my partner wants to i guessღ

4. How old do you think you'll be permanently owned by your lover?
ღ Will i ever be owned?? ღ

5. Are you in love?
ღ Maybe yes..maybe No..who knows =)ღ

6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
ღ Burger King in KLIA before sending my dad off.. ღ

7. Name the latest book you bought?
ღ I don't exactly buy books =) , FYI, i don't really like reading...ღ

8. What is your full name?
ღ Sean Chua [SK] (You only need to know my 1st two names last 2 is not important) ღ

9. Do you prefer mother or father?
ღ Depends on the situation i'm in with them..ღ

10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time.
ღ GOD, just to really see if he exist or not.. but i'm not saying that i don't believe he doesn'tღ

11. Christina or Britney?
ღ Christina as a hot mama / Britney as great entertainment for her craziness ღ

12. Do you do your own laundry?
ღ Not exactly..unless i have to =) ღ

13. The most exciting place you want to go?
ღ Heaven / Hell , Either one..ღ

14. Hugs or Kisses?
ღ Both, Hugs and Kisses play different roles =) ღ

15. Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
dunno her much. but..
ღ Happy as of NOW with her new boyღ
ღ Sometimes quiet and sometimes VERY noisy =D ღ
ღ Funny in a way or two.. have to see the situation ღ
ღ Smarter than i am..ღ
ღ Not so emo afterall =)ღ

16. 8 things I'm passionate about
ღ Girls.. ღ
ღ Girls......ღ
ღ Girls.........ღ
ღ Girls again..ღ
ღ AND MORE GIRLS!!ღ
ღ Finding more money..ღ
ღ A lil dancing here and there..ღ
ღ HAVING LOTS OF FUN!! ( Thats Priority baby!)ღ

17.8 things I say too often
ღ Wat??ღ
ღ Dunno..ღ
ღ Muackz..ღ
ღ Babeღ
ღ Right..ღ
ღhahaღ
*for fcuks?*
ღ I fork you..ღ
ღ Diao..ღ

18.8 books I've read recently
ღ The last chapter of PS: I LOVE YOU ღ
ღ Last chapter of Harry Potter Book 7 ღ
ღ Letters from Dr.Mahathir (Or something like that..its bout letters sent by mahathir to other presidents and country men ღ

19.8 songs I could listen to over and over again
ღDaniel Bedingfield?(Or something like that..don't remember names) - James Deanღ
ღ shayne_ward-breathlessღ
ღCounting Crows - Accidentally in love ღ
ღCan't remember the singer but the song tittle i think is is "not gonna write you a love song"ღ
ღshayne_ward-No Promisesღ
ღ 3 Doors Down - here by me ღ
ღ30 seconds to mars - The Killღ
ღleona lewis - bleeding loveღ

20.8 things I learned last year
ღ How to have more fun..ღ
ღMathematicღ
ღ How to drive a car..partly..ღ
ღ How to complete a sentence with faul languages..ღ
ღ SLEEP BETTER...ღ
ღ How to sleep quietly during exams..ღ
ღ How to get myself out of problems with teachers..ღ
ღ How to split myself so that everyone can be happy..ღ

21.8 people you tag
ღ Gavan Chua ღ
ღ Yap Poh Mei ღ
ღ Lets just cut the chase.. EVERYONE ON MY LINK LIST =) ღ

~SeanChua~

Thursday, May 15, 2008

frus+stress+annoy

11:12 PM

~.* are we gonna die? *.~

~.* are we stil in the real world or in a dream world? *.~

~.* why is everything suddenly so frus? *.~

~.* wan to get a smoke *.~

~.* wanna get drunk. *.~

~.* wanna strip off ur face, ur skin, ur shirt and run around the street like a mad man. *.~

~.* everything is so annoying. *.~

~.* wat is wrong with me? *.~

~.* wat is going on? *.~

~.* wat is happening? *.~

~.* i just cant seem to get it right? why? *.~

~.* i just cant seem to understand *.~

~.* i dun understand myself neither do i understand ppl. *.~

~.* need someone to talk to.. so desperately.. but.. who? who else is there? everyone's busy and u're just someone who is sitting around, just around a corner. all alone. *.~

~.* when there is someone, whose ears are wide open.. just in front of ya. but..why cant u open ur mouth at that moment? *.~

~.* try to break a smile but deep inside.. it seem like.. its breaking and restless.. *.~

~.* always sleeping around and covering up ur face under ur bag. *.~

~.* everything is black *.~

~.* silent.LOST.peaceful. *.~

~.* the world goes round. *.~

~.* time passed. *.~

~.* feel like wanna commit suicide.. but wouldnt dare *.~

~.* wat is happening? *.~

~.* why all these thoughts and dreams are covering u up and gave u the shivers every late at night that u made u go screaming like a mad man? lol.. funny. hahaha *.~

~.* ~.* :: the fear, the frus, the stress, the lost.. that u cant seem to understand.. :: *.~ *.~

wat am i talking bout? =.=

just junk =D hahaha..

wat happen today? hmm.. o yeah.. got demerit bout 15marks in our usj12 shol, a place called "BBI" if u readers know wat place is that..lol.. =) wonderful

okay.. off to study.. =)

huGZz

~GraceKoh~

~.* au revoir*.~

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

weird random post

6:42 PM

bum bum and more BUMS. =.=

somehow feeling annoyed at the time. but it'll be alright in awhile. =)

just bored and the weather is just helping me to heat up my temperature. somehow.. i got a feeling that this post is gonna be a weird plus.. yeah.. basically its just weird and more craps. so dun go asking me wat am i talking bout bcoz.. I DUN EVEN KNOW WAT IM TYPING OR TALKING BOUT..

anyway.. screwed that.. im SOO gonna fail most of my sub. cant really focus on my papers for the past three days. wait.. hmmm.. friday, monday and today? which is stil 3 days right? yeah.. bout the same =.=

during friday's science papers somehow.. im just too sleepy. eyes were half closed while im doing the first paper which is paper2. yeah.. fast fast finish then.. sleep. sleep til half way then somehow.. my whole body just... vibrate?

well.. of course not like the phone's vibration la. that's way too much. LoL. just slight vibrate. i think i was having a bad dream or smtg then just.. vibrate. one of my fren.. or two? cant rmb..i was blurring out by that time.. anyway.. they actually saw it and.. they or he was actually staring at me by that time.. obviously thinking that im crazy or something. and he went laughing. =.= how can someone actually sleep til half way and vibrate? =.=

so on.. yesterday.. during moral test. mood just suddenly went all the way down. saw the moral paper.. its just one annoying paper. dun really care and just junk all the craps inside and sleep. again. dun even care to check back. no idea what had got into me. normally i'll treat my exams papers seriously. i'll DEFINITELY check back my papers over and over again til the teacher said that time's up..but now.. im actually hating it and wasn't serious bout it. sigh.. wat is wrong with me?

history paper was after that. it was paper1. so.. i just went shooting here and there. cover my paper, buried my face in my bag and sleep again. and im actually just sitting just right beside teacher's table. which.. i dun really care whether teacher wan to say anything bout me hugging my beg.

obviously we cant have our bags with us during exam but.. dun care neway. the bag is just somehow.. my baby? LoL. yeah.. it always gave me the comfort that i wanted most since there's no one to hug.. im that type of person that loves hugs alot =) as in ALOT. but never did it often or show it out in another word. ended up always express by using stuff. =) so if u ever seen me in shol or class or.. anywhere with a bag.. definitely, u will be seeing me hugging my bag here and there. of course not to canteen.

recalling back.. i had actually bring my bag along with me to the gent a few times. LoL. wait.. that time was having tummy ache. need support. LoL. yeah.. okay okay.. =.= i know it's lame.

today's account paper.. at least.. im concentrating throughout the 2:30hours. then after recess having bm paper1. and again. junk bout watever that comes into my mind. lazy to think and just.. annoy with the paper. look at it aso feel like wanna tear it into pieces. can guarantee this time my bm is getting a wonderful red ink pen on my report card. wonderful =)

at least all was gone.. for now.. hopefully it doesnt happen tmr. wait.. tmr's having math. =) well.. it's one of my fav that keeps me going.. =) so should be alright..

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now.. some random junk.. dunno why these ques.. somehow.. just pop right through my head.. so.. why not type it out?

~.* ever hate urself?

~.* ever think that why are u always so immature in handling things and stuff? ( not pointing or accusing at u readers ah.. ><>

~.* why cant i just go all the way stroke so that there's ntg in the world that i can care. dun have to care bout anything at all. which.. this makes life more easier?

~.* ever think that u're always so useless in everything?

~.* ever feel like wanna go wild and just do wat u wanna do but somehow fear was the one that hold u back?

~.* u wan a slap so much from a person but u just cant get it..why? O.o

~.* u're selfish and just wanna change someone else? [which most likely had to depend on whether the better side or just satisfy ur needs]

~.* ever feel like slapping urself SO hard on the day that u realize wat is actually going on behind the scene? and just shut ur dAmn complaining mouth?

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o~kay~~ wat am i talking bout.. =.=

sorry bout the upper post if i had said anything wrong. >< my thinking is somehow.. just out.

somehow.. just feeling frus at the time. LoL.. will be over soon later tonight or so. =) ignore that. sorry once again..

okay.. im out..muackz.

~GraceKoh~

~>* au revoir*<~

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Weird swings....

12:36 AM

YOu know..usually..girls are the once with the really funny,weird and bizarre mood swings...i have friends which swings...like..gosh..you do NOT wanna know..

But a weird thing happened to me today..well..as of now..its yesterday..hahahahaha..its past 12am..now its 12.40 on my clock..

Started the day off early..for me..bout 9+ i got up..took my shower and etc..check my computer for awhile...and texted a few of my friends out for something to eat..but before that..i went to renew my road tax for my car..

So..went to pick Jin ee up from his house..then Picked up my old friend wan hui..and we went for lunch at usj14...

Well..started off with a good happy day..yea?

So..day went on..after lunch..chit chat with my 2 friends..then..went to pyramid with them..oh..not forgetting that i picked up Su-Woei later on from her campus to [S.P] too..she was going to meet up with her boyfriend..

Mood started going down a lil...but still in a good mood...

Took pictures with them..you know girls and their love for cam-whoring.. so..yea..passed that...ate some more...

Mood went down even more..but..still can be considered..a good mood..

Finished up..sent su-woei home..jin home..and then wan hui home...suppose to go over to ss15 with my brother later on..but..change of plans..met up with my girl at..usj9? i think..

But anyway..mood went down even further..so..okay..going over to the bad mood side..didn't like it much..

Moving on...went over to her place..lepak there..and..so forth..her mom came back..i escaped..she went out with her mom...and..i went off...

Then mood went ALL THE WAY DOWN..somehow..i was kind of annoyed and pissed off at the same time..weird..but nothing happened to actually cause that..

Had a some left over cigarettes in my car..bout say..5 sticks or so?? Stopped somewhere before going to meet mu brother at the rak and smoked all 5 of them..under 30mins..lol..

Weird..but damn..it was good..relaxed a lil..

Went to see them play pool..breathed more oxygen there too..but anyway..mood was still half bad..half good..

Drove home = MOOD BAD!! , took a smooth fly down kesas back to my home @ 180 flat..played with 2 wira and won them flat..smoked a saga which was blocking me on the way out of kesas..he blocked me..then after i passed him..he started to "thiong" me from the back..floored my pedal..didn't even go on OD yet..he was far away..so played with the 2 wira on the way back..

GOSH!! they both are so annoying..i think they were friends..one "thiong" from the back..one block from the front..swerved to the left and took over the front..both of them started to "thiong" me from the back..annoying lil bastards..and they kept flashing me..so annoying..was going at 140 only..and they were tailing me at the middle lane..

So then..offed OD..lovely OD..floored and shoot up 180..flew down back home..those 2 wira continued the chase..i went on further..using the bkt rimau side entrance..those 2 followed me as well..but well..lost them after the conner in..guess their balls flew out the window when one of them slided..thank god i didn't slide..hahaha..taking a conner at 170 is NOT FUN...

But anyway..i'm still somehow..quiet annoyed now..and..i don't know why..i think i'll just head the sacks now..before...i say or do anything else..hahaha..

Take care..bye

~SeanChua~

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Tagged By Sam~~

10:00 PM

What was I doing 10 years ago (1998)?

- Having alot of fun riding my bicycle doing stupid things XP

- Playing Catching / Ice & water , basicly any running game =)

- Playing Card games..Pokemon and etc..was it then?? i can't even remember..hahaha

- Being a really good kid =) , until i reached st. 3 d{@_#}b

- Tamiya cars..yeah..with my elder brother..

5 things on my to-do list today

- SLLLLEEEEPPPPPP!!!!

- Fix some problems on my computer..

- Play Battlefield 2142 with my brother..

- Send my dad to the bus station so that he can take the bus back to singapore..

- Figure out what to do tomorrow........

5 Snacks I enjoy

- cheesels

- *Twiggies*

- twisties

- Potato Chips

- oreos

5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire

- Invest in more companies so my billions will make more billions =D

- Own a cozy house somewhere on a country side..OR..anywhere cozy =)

- Start a business somewhere just for side income or fun :)

- Build a nice big house where i can house all my relatives :) (Maybe not all but mom's side aunties for sure!! and some other relatives too =D)

- Can't think of anything else at the moment..lol..

5 of my bad habits

- Social Smoking..

- Spending money....

- Flirting??

- always want female attention (Similar to sam but not as much as HIM!! hahaha)

- Too lazy to do anything..i like to BUM!!

5 place i have lived

- Malacca, Alor Gajah (Hometown)

- Usj2/5D house number..forgotten..16 i think..rented house..

- A few friend's houses :)

- Somewhere in melbourne.....

- Hotels??

5 jobs I've had

- Runner for a clarks warehouse..

- "Guli" for again..clarks warehouse...

- A runner..runner runner..lol..

- (Empty)

(I don't find jobs often :) , i'm lazy!)

5 people I tag:

Mun Yee
Shiang Leit
Poh Mei
Gavan Chua
Grace Koh

Thursday, May 1, 2008

a long post

10:11 PM

okay.. its been awhile since i last post bout something. okay.. mid term exam is coming up next monday, which... is bout in 3 days time +/- and im actually stil slacking.

currently having high fever and flu. plus sore throat and all.. dang it~!! @.#

torture onli =.= sheesh~ nvm bout that.

well my head is stil slightly spinning now while im typing this. but nvm.. i'll just continue typing. just hopefully ntg will go wrong on the way bcoz seriously.. felt like i've lost my sense of brain functioning. lol.. ( is there even a word? hmmm..) o well.. everything felt like bouncing here and there.. anyway.. let's just stop crapping around.. lol.

okay.. i've got a feeling that this post is going to be real real long wan. so.. dun think that u readers would actually wanna continue reading this gua.. i think.. anyway......

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okay.. i've.. uhh.. read the link in the chatbox few mins ago. at least i've FINALLY got the time to actually come on9 to check wat's going on. well.. im not sure who were those ppl. and even tho i had some names in mind but im not gonna assume that whether are u really that person.

well.. i guess.. im speechless. well.. i mean.. just like wat he had said.. its just a RANDOM POST. well.. everyone can junk bout watever they wanted in their post right? well.. even if its
referring to himself.. so wat? wat can we do? we cant do anything right? couldnt be taking a knife pointed under his chin and said that: "wat had u done to ur girl? go back to her bcoz she loves u so darn much so u have to love her back?"

well.. im sure that.. even tho its he, himself. he'll be thinking and he will choose between wat's right and wat's wrong for himself.. =) as for MY POSITION, i've just gotta trust him on that.
wait.. its not gotta its ALREADY.

somehow.. when sometimes when he does things.. he'll tell me. and that is when he build his
trust in me. =) which.. okay.. i admit. =.= last time, i think around jan or so.. well.. i used to doubt a lot. AS IN REALLY. im not that kinda girl that could really accept reality.

even sometimes.. i even wonder.. izit true that this sean chua dude actually choose me to be his girl? are we really together now in REAL LIFE? or am i stil dreaming in my once-in-a-blue-moon day-dream which.. nobody actually loves me or cared bout me. i mean.. as for in a relationship la..why? i mean.. his cool and all. there is one whole bunch loads of fishes out there waiting for him.. why choose ME?

-*~ a girl who is a NOBODY.

-*~ a girl that always failed in ALL her relationships

-*~ a girl that couldnt give her guy wat they wanted most and make them happy. and is this for real or for izit another kicks again?

more low~self~esteem thinking which is getting more more and MORE. lol.. guess he'd seen that
through all this while.hahaha. i think it kind annoyed him at times.

but when time passed, for a longer time. i actually realize that.. maybe i should start to think logically. stop thinking like some girl who couldnt love herself and always
put other in front more than herself. tho i stil do now. somehow.. i just couldnt change that
mindset. which.. is a good thing or bad leh? hmmm..

well.. its just part of life i guess.. things change and ppl change. it just whether u'll accept reality and make the used of it or just.. trap urself up. ur choice stil =) no one wil decide for u. decisions are stil in ur hand ;)

as for me? im alright bout the post actually =) tho for the first post.. the porky and fishy wat wat.. lol. that..honestly.. i doubt it at first. (bet u didnt know that huh babe?) but that was BEFORE when he actually told me that it was his fren. and yeah. i accepted it =) i trust him. and i know that he wasnt that kinda person who goes around my back. which god knows wat his doing. but well..if his going behind my back.. i aso dunno wat will happen actually. lol.

somehow..when he did things he'll let me know. and i really really do appreciate that. even small stuff =) bcoz.. u felt.. accepted and his telling u stuff automatically. better than u just sit at home and wonder wat his doing all day long, worrying and doubting. trust me.. some girls were like that if u boys were actually reading this =) this is one of the tricks. i guess.. =) anyway.. let's not get carried away.. obviously.. =.= starting cannot accept la. but well.. somehow time passed and soon.. u're okay with it. bcoz that is just who he really is. u cant change anything unless he wanted too. u have no rights to change a person unless that person wanted too..

by changing a person, u have to change urself first. bcoz.. imagine u, urself wasnt perfect ald. why wanna make ppl and expect ppl to go the way u wan them to be and satisfy ur needs? that would be the most selfishiest thing on earth. no?

wow.. this is long. i've never post so long b4. lol..

well lastly.. as for the ppl who read this. im not trying to put any blame on anyone or saying that wat u did is right or wrong. well.. maybe the blog did sounded like it's referring to him but well.. he did said no right? so trust him on this? please? and.. one more thing.

i appreciate that u guys actually cared. =) really. if i know who u were i'll give u a big bear hugz. but since.. i dun really know who u were might as well just *HUG* here lol.. i know that u're just trying to protect me. well.. im a big girl now. no? im seventeen this year. big enough to take care of myself. =) in a way or two. hahaha. but still.. big enough rightttttt????? and.. one request? no harsh word.
>< i dun wan anything to clush between my bf and my friends. peace? =)

oh? not forgetting. =) i actually shared a testimony this afternoon during thanks giving. was the onli teenagers that stand forward to actually voice out in front of 60 pairs of eyes looking right at ya. was the last called out too =)

and guess wat? my mum actually said that i looked like a form1 or 2 girl standing out there. =.= am i really that small and petit til like that meh? sigh..

after finished sharing.. the church hall actually clapped? few of the ppl back they didnt really clapped. weird.. somehow finished my story and they clapped. lol.cool huh? and trust me.. all are adults. onli two teenagers attended the thanks giving praying thingy. lol..

well.. im just doing my part. wanna let ppl, espectially the adults to know that.. wat had WE teenagers gone through and our needs that's all. its nice in a way or to that u share bout smtg with someone.. u know.. =)

dropped my favourite hair clip on the way home from church while im sitting a fren's motobike =( sob.. its cool sitting a motobike. but its not cool to lost ur favourite stuff. =(
got FEELING wan u know.. lol. (okay crap.. wat im talking =.=ll)

okay okay. >< ciao =")">

~GraceKoh~

~+*au revoir+*~